ride on, to the early morning sun

title:
date: Wednesday, 28 December 2011
time:12:57 AM

so glad i had this boy detox LOL will continue this post later... maybe... LOL hopefully by the end of the year D:

title: boredom gets boring
date: Sunday, 11 December 2011
time:10:09 PM

oh would you look at that, blogspot has changed a little

1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
usually one is open out of the three
2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?
HELL TO THE YES
3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?
i prefer tucked but i dont ever make my bed LOL
4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before?
nope
5: Do you like to use post-it notes?
yes a lot LOL
6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?
... yes LOL
7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?
swarm of bees
8: Do you have freckles?
a little
9: Do you always smile for pictures?
most of the time yes :'D
10: What is your biggest pet peeve?
complaining non-stop
11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk?
hardly ever
12: Have you ever peed in the woods?
yes
13: What about pooped in the woods?
probably LOL
14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?
yes quite often
15: Do you chew your pens and pencils?
no, never
16: How many people have you slept with this week?
so many, lost count.... jokes
17: What size is your bed?
king single
18: What is your Song of the week?
what are words
19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
of course
20: Do you still watch cartoons?
yep
21: Whats your least favorite movie?
i appreciate all movies D:
22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?
in my backyard (im not that creative)
23: What do you drink with dinner?
i dont drink during dinner, actually i rarely drink ever
24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
human blood (or sweet and sour sauce... or tomato/bbq)
25: What is your favorite food?
now youve got me thinking about chicken nuggets LOL
26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love?
not many (if any)
27: Last person you kissed/kissed you?
family
28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout?
nah
29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?
depends on how much, which magazine, whether i liked my body
30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
last night, but they will never get the letter :L
31: Can you change the oil on a car?
yeh
32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket?
no
33: Ever ran out of gas?
my mum has whilst i was in the car
34: Favorite kind of sandwich?
with sausages inside! =9
35: Best thing to eat for breakfast?
pancakes!
36: What is your usual bedtime?
fluctuates from 10pm-4am
37: Are you lazy?
yes
38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?
never did
39: What is your Chinese astrological sign?
dog
40: How many languages can you speak?
2 fluently
41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
no
42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs?
what are lincoln logs? i'll just say legos LOL
43: Are you stubborn?
i wouldnt think so
44: Who is better...Leno or Letterman?
leno, hes got the chin LOL but theyre both so funny :(
45: Ever watch soap operas?
nope
46: Are you afraid of heights?
used to be, not anymore
47: Do you sing in the car?
nah
48: Do you sing in the shower?
nope
49: Do you dance in the car?
no
50: Ever used a gun?
nope but i will use one next year!! :DD
51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?
errr.... does passport photos count? if so, late 2008
52: Do you think musicals are cheesy?
yes :D
53: Is Christmas stressful?
no
54: Ever eat a pierogi?
nope
55: Favorite type of fruit pie?
apple
56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?
ballerina, teacher, scientist, doctor, accountant, policewoman
57: Do you believe in ghosts?
yes
58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?
mhmm! :)
59: Take a vitamin daily?
only from the foods i eat!
60: Wear slippers?
nah
61: Wear a bath robe?
nope, never really understood bath robes :S
62: What do you wear to bed?
random shit LOL
63: First concert?
never been to one :( unless you call dance concerts something? LOL
64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?
Wal-Mart is AWESOMMEEEEE!! but kmart since we're in Oz :(
65: Nike or Adidas?
nike
66: Cheetos Or Fritos?
.... cheetos? :S
67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?
PEANUTS!!!!
68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?
bien reminds me of rosa HAHAHAAHAH
69: Ever take dance lessons?
ballet, tap and jazz LOL never hip hop :(
70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?
same as me probably... but i have a feeling hes going to be an engineer :S
71: Can you curl your tongue?
yes
72: Ever won a spelling bee?
no, i hate english :'(
73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy?
yes LOL HAHAHAHA
74: Own any record albums?
nope xD
75: Own a record player?
sort of :)
76: Regularly burn incense?
nah
77: Ever been in love?
once
78: Who would you like to see in concert?
making april... i was obsessed with this band for a good 2 years... like utterly obsessed
79: What was the last concert you saw?
:'(
80: Hot tea or cold tea?
hot!
81: Tea or coffee?
tea
82: Sugar or snickerdoodles?
what are snickerdoodles? LOL so sugar!
83: Can you swim well?
well enough
84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?
yes
85: Are you patient?
apparently very much so
86: DJ or band, at a wedding?
having a band is classy! but restrictive so DJ
87: Ever won a contest?
yes
88: Ever have plastic surgery?
nope
89: Which are better black or green olives?
neither :'(
90: Can you knit or crochet?
yes and yes
91: Best room for a fireplace?
living room? LOL
92: Do you want to get married?
definitely
93: If married, how long have you been married?
still waiting! :)
94: Who was your HS crush?
so many LOL
95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?
probably not
96: Do you have kids?
i wish LOL
97: Do you want kids?
YES
98: Whats your favorite color?
red
99: Do you miss anyone right now?
a few

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title:
date: Wednesday, 9 November 2011
time:12:37 PM

"She always feels other people look down on her. They rarely do, but she constantly compares herself to others, drawing the conclusion time and time again everybody else is better, brighter, prettier, more successful, and therefore must look down on her. She dreads meeting new people because it makes her feel utterly insignificant. She dreads hanging out with friends, because she feels so boring next to them. Their lives are so full of excitement, full of crazy adventures, never a dull day. They have an amount of courage and bravery she will never attain. After every meeting, every unplanned encounter, she feels smaller, weaker, more insecure. She feels best when she is alone. When people tell her they like her, she thinks they are lying or pulling a practical joke. She believes they talk about her behind her back, that they hate hanging out with her, that they think she is not good enough, just like she thinks she is not good enough. That feeling of not being good enough always haunts her. There are days she believes that feeling will never go away. Those days she is convinced she will die without having lived, without being accepted, without being loved. The truth is she is already loved and accepted by most people she knows, but she can’t see that as long as she doesn’t feel that love and acceptance from herself first. Stranger, people don’t look down on you, you look down on yourself. Luckily, it is in your power to change the way you think about yourself."

bleh

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title: SO MUCH HAPPINESS.
date: Tuesday, 4 October 2011
time:2:13 AM

just had one of the most amazing nights talking to a bunch of HAHS 2011 kids...

This is the best feeling in the world <3

I love you guys so much, this is so amazing!

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title: Honeymoon stage, where you at?
date: Tuesday, 30 August 2011
time:12:15 AM

You probably read this or you'll read this when its too late. We argue over stupid things. Like really really stupid. Its usually you make a small wrong step and I usually make it a big deal because I'm honest with how I feel about shit. Then things get worse while you put your defense up as do I and we end up just arguing to the point where I don't even know how it started x_x. I'm sorry I get angry at you a lot and I'm sorry I'm often sad ... I'm working on it. But i just hate how youre constantly disappointing me, bailing on me twice within 4 days... I feel like I'm sacrificing so much for you and that I'm always travelling the distance to spend time with you. I just want you to want to be with me enough to do the same. I know youre new to this whole dating scene... wtf am I even saying... we're not even dating x_x what are we? We'll probably be nothing soon (I don't mean that. Sorry.) I wish you'd take initative with something... I hate being the one always reaching out to hold your hand... it makes me feel silly and needy ... its a strange feeling. Sometimes I act mean and cold to make me feel like I don't need you either. Its stupid, its immature. I know that. It gives me a temporary satisfaction (sort of like prostitution HAHAHAHAHA WTF AMY)

You probably think I'm weird how I randomly let things go and tell you that youre cute and that I love you... yeh, that's the moment when I realise that the pain from fighting with you is worse than the pain that you gave me initially .... sigh.

I'm sorry for being stupid and making things a big deal all the freaking time... I'm not always like this >< I just get scared that you'll leave. Even though ironically, I push you away. I'm such a girl.

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title: stole from tumblr.... LOL IM SO BORED
date: Wednesday, 24 August 2011
time:1:09 PM

Tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?

hes really sweet :$ heheheeheheheheehehhehehiuwehfhguwenfhweuih

What on your body is hurting or bothering you?

bother me on a superficial, insecure level? many things

What was your last thought before going to bed last night?

TRIALS RESULTS D=

What are you listening to?

my dad talking :L

What’s something you’re not looking forward to?

getting trial results back tomorrow :(

Where do you think your best friend is right now?

home :)

Have you kissed anybody in the last 5 days?

hehehe yes on the cheek :$

Sex on the first date?

nahhhhhhh

Kiss on the first date?

depends on if you know the person beforehand and stuff :D

Is there one person you want to be with right now?

yes :)

Are you seriously happy with where you are in life?

i am actually!

Is there something you would like to say to someone?

i love you :D HAHAHAH

What are three things you did today?

went to school to celebrate someone's birthday, got caked in the face by jenny and lisa LOL and i read through all my contracts (because im boss)

Would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?

sleep at a friends LOL

What is your favorite kind of gum?

gum isnt really my thing... hehehe

Are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?

yep

What is on your wrists right now?

friendship bracelet :D <3 lizzie

Ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?

of course :D

Does anyone have strong feelings for you?

you'd have to ask him :$

Are you slowly drifting away from someone?

i imagine so

Have you ever wasted your time on someone?

i think so

Can you do the alphabet in sign language?

yes i can

How have you felt today?

i feel pretty happy :) lets see if it'll last the night HAHAHA

You receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?

invveesssttttttt... i.e. id spend it on buy proportions of companies 8D

What is wrong with you right now?

... WHATS WRONG WITH YOU

Is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?

yehhh... sometimes

Would you rather have Starbucks or Jamba Juice right now?

jamba juice :D because i dont drink coffee :P

Why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?

i was never 'in love' but i dont like him now because shit happens :)

How late did you stay up last night and why?

12:30ish, because i was youtubing heaps

When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?

today :)

What were you doing an hour ago?

i was on the train

What are you looking forward to in the next month?

formal! :)

Are you wearing jeans right now?

nah

Are you a patient person?

usually yes, but sometimes i lose it as well :)

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months?

yes, easily

Favorite color?

red :)

Did you have a dream last night?

yep

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?

shorts... school shorts LOL :)

If someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?

hi leslie :)

Do you love anyone who is not related to you?

i love my friends :)

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?

yes, unless it causes shit to happen =X but i would want them to tell me sooner or later

Do you like meeting new people?

i do most of the time :)

Are you afraid of falling in love?

not particularly... but yes at the same time

Ever liked someone older than you?

i like someone whos older than me right now :L

Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?

yes LOL

Have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?

of course D:

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title: Im sorry.
date: Sunday, 21 August 2011
time:1:55 AM

I'm a really bad girlfriend/lover/significant other/person to you and I'm sorry... I get swept up in my insecurities that I lose control and assume the worst of you. I hope you fall in love with me one day because I'm telling you now, it exists. I wish I could convince you or that you'd trust me enough to have faith in it. I want to trust you but I don't want to be that idiot like every other time who falls for the wrong guy who feeds you lies then cheats on you... I don't want that but I'm obliged to feel that most guys do it :( and I'm sorry that they continue to fuck things up, even after they're gone. But I am trying to trust you with everything I have but it's going to take a while... you make me so emotionally weak, it's strange. I don't like it. :(

So tired, can't keep my eyes open... sigh finish venting another time or never at all :L

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